A year from now you will wish you had started today.
It has been quite a while since I’ve posted on the blog. Months in fact. After my birthday, I was in a bit of a funk, not an “Oh my Gosh, I’m 40” funk – I’m cool with the date on my driver’s license, but more of a “what am I doing?” funk. I was cleaning out a box, and found a journal from back in 2008. Not really that long ago – the Princess was a toddler, I had just started running, I was unhappy in my job, and trying to figure out how to make changes. But in flipping through the journal I found an entry. It was just one line “I am trying to find myself.” I actually threw the book across the room. I wondered how I could be on this loop again and how I’ve done the work and can’t believe that I’m trying to find myself still. But I sat with it for a bit, and I realized that the problem is not that I’m trying to find myself. I know who I am, and what my passions are. My problem is figuring out where I fit into this big puzzle of life. How do I share my gifts with the world? And are my gifts even worth sharing?
And then the fear started whispering in my ear, so I got stuck. Really stuck. Stuck is safe. Stuck is unchanging. Stuck is staying in the known. It’s also really boring, not fun, and definitely not a place to be for any length of time. So slowly I started to un-stuck myself. And things started to happen. I was digging through a box in the studio, and realized an amazing idea that had been sitting there all along. I’ll have the Etsy shop for that open in a few weeks (more to come on soon). I had a friend reach out with an amazing opportunity to work with her. I am so excited about it I could bust. (a LOT more on that soon). I am planning, and moving forward, and taking baby steps towards my puzzle piece.
At times I have to remind myself, when I’m feeling unsure and the fear starts to whisper again, that I get to do all of this because I have gifts, and they are worth sharing. You have gifts that are worth sharing too. We all should share what we have today, because otherwise we become stuck, and a year from now we will wish we had started already.
Here’s to all of our gifts. The world is just waiting for us to share them.